I received a question about my belief in GOD. It arrived as a criticism implying that I have a defect because I did not see GOD through the lens of religious faith. It kind of irritated me at first as to why someone would want to question my beliefs but then I welcomed the inquiry as a challenge in trying to search among the simpleness of words to explain the grandiose of that which I call GOD.
My experience with GOD was being called to do something outside of myself and I got there through a miracle. I guess miracles are GOD’s way of changing the rules for some to experience GOD in a more compelling way.
When GOD calls, you listen and although you struggle with the realization that a new path has been set, there is a calm grace that knows you do not want to miss taking the next step. It is when the soul and the next choice comes into alignment with a place of truth. Coming to know GOD was not about debating who GOD is or talking about it; it was an experience that set in motion an awareness of a force that could not be denied.
My spiritual awakening was mass confusion and many thought I was crazy, including me. Yet something remarkable happened as I was taken beyond this reality. I arrived at the place where I “found” GOD in a most compelling way.
I left my body (one of the many times) and I traveled to an inter-dimensional space. At the moment I met GOD I was deep inside the darkness of a vortex out in a vast universal space that was spinning and spinning closer to a center that never ended. I believe that was infinity. When I finally focused on where I was, I tried to interpret it and since there are no words for GOD I could not explain it.
There is no presence of GOD since it does not present itself; it simply is. There is however a tone and a vibration that after I came to realize it, was the same vibration and tone of my own consciousness. There was no form, no face but I sensed it as a source of energy.
The intoxicating sound of GOD had no beginning and no end and when you are experiencing it, you cannot deny GOD, as the familiarity cannot be dismissed. It is like knowing the hand that beats a drum that vibrates everything into existence. There was no judgement and I cannot even call it love, as nothing we experience as love here on earth could measure up to the depth of what I felt. I also talk about this in my book.
After I returned, this awareness changed me and I would never exist in the same way as before. I wanted so much to share what I saw and knew with others yet it was impossible to explain where I had been. I would speak of angels, miracles, spirits, healing and other places of existence but everyone wanted proof of it all. A few would embrace my stories and were relieved I had found a “somewhere else” where we would go but no one could go there with me.
I am convinced that GOD exists where there is no doubt of the existence of a divine force that manages the universe. God is the opposite of randomness. I could not wake up every morning without the assurance that there is a something guiding this entire process, something that created all that exists.
So when someone asks me again, do you believe in GOD I will reply that for me it is not about believing in GOD. Instead it is in the experiencing of GOD that you believe. It would be as ridiculous of being to be asked if I believe in Paris. Paris is Paris. You experience Paris; you do not have to believe in it.
From the other side,